It’s made me much much more aware of every part of myself and how it responds to temperature/food/stress/situations etc. Hyper awareness also makes me more self critical, which isn’t fun but comes with the territory.
I do also think of my body as a commodity in many ways because of modeling; I often view it in monetary/work terms. When I think of my “self,” my body is the least important part, but I do value how it helps support my life, in more than just “regulate breathing and heart beat” way.
If you’ve been following along, you may know how hard this summer (and this month in particular) has been for me. Depressed by world events, stressed by finances and non-stop travel, feeling slowed down because I’m waiting for new modeling work to be released…. and longingly pining for the old days when I bought lattes and lingerie without a second thought.
But today, right now, sitting on the bus at the start of my next big trip, I’m feeling deeply grateful. For my Corwin, who I love endlessly and will very much miss the next 2 months.
For the outpouring of comments and gifts I have received the past week.
For a lifestyle that allows me to be creative and run my life by my own schedule.
For a business partner who is my best friend.
For the steady shoes on my feet and the fresh foods that I eat.
For the sunlight.
For everyone who has hired me, supported me, and kept me in their thoughts.
It’s a good life.
Thank you! Glad to have you following along :)
Then this is a wonderful read about the Dynamic Nude Photography Workshop I’m doing on Lake Powell this October! I’d love for you to join me :) http://us4.campaign-archive1.com/?u=cf10f095780a5607279629d4d&id=24ca814659&e=f7deb2cef7